I really do want a boy to hold me now and warm my heart. Not just any boy though. One that is smart, funny, sensitive and gentle. One who loves music from the 80’s and not the shit they play today. One who will love me for what is inside and outside. I want him to be the type who will accept the way I have to live, losing and gaining weight fast than most people by far, not much sun exposure and no children in the future. I want him to be a gentleman and do things like bringing me roses and writing letters. When he proposes I want him to surprise me out in public and do it in a creative way. I want him to talk to me when he is down and cry with me when I am. I want him to call instead of text and remember my birthday without Facebook to help him. I want him to kiss me goodnight and love me until we die.

I won’t make him remember the date of our first kiss or even when we first got together but if he is the right guy he will anyway. I won’t be a control freak or flirt with other guys. I will remember his birthday and I will love him for all he is. I will do all this and much more.

To my soul-mate wherever he is:

We’re two of a kind,

Both of us searching for some perfect world we know we’ll never find,

So perhaps I should leave here and go far away,

But you know that there’s nowhere that I’d rather be than with you here today……….